The Tank

by Heddwen

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This album was recorded at The Tank Center for Sonic Arts in Rangely, Colorado. The Tank has a natural 45-second delay which shaped the song selection, performance, and recording techniques used in this unique immersive album. We're so excited to share it with you!

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released November 15, 2019

Mixing & recording engineer: Steve Skinner
Producers: Katie Rudman, Riley Skinner, Steve Skinner
Vocals & Guitar: Katie Rudman & Riley Skinner
Additional vocalists on "These are the Saddest of Things": Steve Skinner, Samantha Lightshade, Jason Trow

All music & lyrics were written by Katie Rudman and Riley Skinner with the exception of "Come Wander" which is a cover composed by Jeff Alexander and sung by Bonnie Beecher and "8-Count" which uses text from a Charles Bukowski poem of the same title.

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Heddwen Seattle, Washington

Heddwen is a freak folk duo with singer-songwriters Riley Skinner and Katie Rudman. Heddwen's music is hauntingly nostalgic, blending raw lyrics with intricate harmonies. They are currently based in the Pacific Northwest.

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Track Name: Come Wander
He said love
come wander
come wander with me
away from this sad world
come wander with me

He came from the sunset
he came from the sea
he came from my sorrow
and can love only me
Track Name: This is Why
Parting my skin,
coming in with your emptiness—
I could begin to feel full,
but I'm over it now

Parting my hair with your fingers
and resting there
empty your lungs at the space
between you and my neck

I watched with the eyes of a bird
or a snake in the grass
weaving around at your feet
through paths we'd not gone down—
there was retreat before they were all found,
and my feet they were bare
and bleeding right into the ground

This is why you will never love me again
this is why you will never love me again
this is why you will never love me again
this is why you will never love me again
love me again, love me,
again, again, again

Don't believe what I said—
I have lied and been led
to the things that I've done
and the ways that I am

Don't believe what I said—
I have lied and been led
to the things that I've done
and the ways that I am

Dae dae dae dae dae dae dae dae
dae dae dae dae dae dae dae dae

This is why you will never love me again
this is why you will never love me again
this is why you will never love me again
this is why you will never love me again
love me again, love me,
again, again, again
Track Name: You'll Never Know
All the leaves stripped from the trees
leave bare arms waving
take off your clothes,
feel the wind move through your bones

No, this is not the hand
this is not the hand that made you
no, no, no

You can spend your whole life searching,
but you know you'll never know

Take me down, take me down
take me down to the river
want to wash my body, wash my body clean

Here every day feels like an endless winter
and even when the sun comes out,
the cold remains

I have two eyes, I have two eyes
but I have no way to see you
and these hands have felt your skin
but you were younger then, you were younger then

Take me down, take me down
take me down to the water
want to wash my body in the stream

And no, these are not the hands
these are not the hands that made you
no, no, no

You'll spend your whole life searching
but you know you'll never know

How will you ever know
will you ever know
will you ever know?
Track Name: Thin Man
If you show me your mind, can I read it?
Will you look me in the eye once I've seen it?

Shadows pass over your hollowed-out mouth
as you're sleeping--
holding the lies you gave me and I have been keeping,
catching the salt that falls from my eyes as I'm weeping

Hope is the language I spoke to you when I belonged here
beneath the cracks of the doors we couldn't fit under
lying awake in our bed, I forgot what our names were

You're a thin man, air child
you're a thin man running wild
you're a thin man running wild
you're a thin man running wild

I know where you are but I can't touch you
when you are dreaming
your mind is the air
and my body's the stone it is carving
and the night is always so loud
when it moves in around me

You're a thin man, air child
you're a thin man running wild
you're a thin man running wild
you're a thin man running wild
you're a thin man running wild
Track Name: I, Like a Spider
I, like a spider
you became the center of my course—
my lifeblood,
the thing on which I feed

I, like a spider
you became the center of my course—
my lifeblood,
the thing on which I feed

I, like a spider
you became the center of my course—
my lifeblood,
the thing on which I feed

I promised you could rest here without fearing me
I promised you could rest here without fearing me
beside me, inside of me without fearing me
I promised you could rest here without fearing me

I promised you could rest here without fearing me
I promised you could rest here without fearing me
beside me, inside of me without fearing me
I promised you could rest here without fearing me

I, like a spider
you became the center of my course—
my lifeblood,
the thing on which I feed

I, like a spider
you became the center of my course—
my lifeblood,
the thing on which I feed

I, like a spider
you became the center of my course—
my lifeblood,
the thing on which I feed

I, like a spider
you became the center of my course—
my lifeblood,
the thing on which I feed
Track Name: 8-Count
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8

from my bed I watch three birds
on a telephone wire
one flies off and then another
then he too, he too is gone
gone, gone, gone

my typewriter sits tombstone still
my typewriter sits tombstone still

and I am reduced to bird, to bird
I am reduced to bird, to bird
watching, watching, watching

thought I'd let you know
thought I'd let you, thought I'd let you know
thought I'd let you know
thought I'd let you, thought I'd let you know

fucker, fucker, fucker
Track Name: Blood Moon
I wait under the blood moon
as red sky blackens to night
the moon is strung into blackness
by bodies of stars burning bright

they're falling fast through layers of night
the hours pass by and I'm left alone
to think about where I am from
and how I'll get home

I stood over the grass
that was lit by the night sky
I placed my feet over the blades—
they were dry and decayed
but they held me upright

and don't believe what they say
they will not come for you,
they will not come

don't believe what they say
they will not come for you,
they will not come
they will not come

In the mornings I lie here,
all of my eyes staring at nothing
In the mornings I lie here,
all of my eyes staring at nothing
your cold back against me,
your cold eyes moving away from my face

Remember the music you played for me
that one night on your knees?
Half remembered guitar melody
that you wrote when you were in love
with somebody else

and don't believe what they say
they will not come for you,
they will not come

don't believe what they say
they will not come for you,
they will not come
they will not come

You're sorry but you have to leave
you're sorry but you have to leave
you're sorry but you have to leave
so leave, leave, leave, leave, leave

and don't believe what I say
I will not come for you,
I will not come

don't believe what I say
I will not come for you,
I will not come
I will not come
I will not come
I will not come
Track Name: Standing Still
Let's go on a drive, let's go far
Put my feet on the dash of your car
If we stay I don't think I can stand it

Faces in trees have stories for me
All the life that they've seen
All the while they were standing still
Mmm....

I'm made of sugar and dirt
And my heart doesn't hurt
When I'm alone
Mmm...

You hold me back and I'm grateful
I'll give you all that I have when I'm able

Now that we're out here on the road
Are you gonna do what you're told?
You've never been one to just go along
Mmm....

Please, stay just a while in the grass
Tell the stories you recall from your past
All the while I'll be standing still
Mmm...

Don't turn your back on me angel
I'll give you all that I have when able...

Free falling form
Go with the lord
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
Ahh.....
Track Name: Altar
At the altar of my life
I wait for love to find me
How much must my heart repent
To quiet shame inside me?

Ooh... you can't know how much you mean to me
How much I've been crying
Ooh... you can't know how I'm stretching to reach you
In these finite hours

Nothing is so beautiful
Ad the faces I see when I'm dreaming
Or your mouth stretched in sweet surprise
At all the moments worth keeping

Ooh... don't leave me hanging onto this moment
Kissing you without touching
Ooh... you can't know how I'm stretching to reach you
Drawing air without breathing
Ooh... you can't know how much you mean to me
In these finite hours...

At the altar of my life
I wait for love to find me
Track Name: These Are the Saddest of Things
These are the saddest of things,
these are among the saddest of things

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